So healing work aside, I still needed to unpack the emotional pathology behind the lockjaw and mouth pain. What I experienced was an entire shift of generational patterns.
This one so rare, it's worth a mention just because it's so rare. Apart from yesterday, I've only ever seen this happen once before, in a shifting session I did for myself when I first started creating the mirrors process.
A generational pattern is a belief, fear, energy, habit, pattern you inherit on the genetic line from one of your parents. You can think of it like family karma - it's passed down but not from soul to soul; it's passed down parent to child.
One distinguishing way of looking at a Generational Pattern (GP) therefore, is that the energy would not follow you into a next incarnation. Unless you had personal experiences with that energy that created new karma, a new life would mean saying goodbye to those GPs permanently.
I don't often talk about these, so I'm gonna use a few examples from my side to explain it.
In this case the GPs stemmed mainly from my grandfather's experience as a young boy.
We are Polish Jews by heritage, and during WW2, my grandfather, his older brother and their mom, were smuggled out of Poland as part of a group of Jewish orphans.
A group of orphans was sent to South Africa, another to New Zealand, and the last to Tel Aviv. Here's a bit of a write up on the SA group sent to Oudtshoorn: http://feefhs.org/resource/poland-childrens-home
My grandfather was 14 when they docked in SA; his older brother had been sent to New Zealand. My great gran, his mom, had died of starvation just before they docked in Durban, because she had been giving her food rations to my grandfather on the boat trip over. Yes her death of starvation also triggered a whole range of GPs - including a history of violent mental, emotional and physical abuse from the men in my family.
When they landed, my grandfather was 14, and as far as we knew, orphaned. It was only once I started researching claiming my Polish citizenship that the rest of the story came to light.
His father, Leon, survived the war, and once he returned to Poland, did not want the kids back and left them marooned in foreign countries, believing he was dead. He in fact remarried and had another family.
The same pattern played out in my mom's life, with her father abandoning her mom not long after she was born. She also never knew her dad.
Many of the statements therefore, applied on both lines, including statements like:
- Family is disposable. Children are disposable.
- My father doesn't want me.
- My father chose a new wife and child over me.
- My father chose a new family over me.
- My father doesn't care what happens to me.
- I can easily be forgotten.
- My needs and well being don't matter.
- Alcohol is more important than me.
Then there were statements just from one thread or another - so just from one parental line, statements like:
- I am separated from my family.
- I am away across the sea.
- I am exiled in an unfamiliar place where people don't understand me or speak my language.
- My home has been taken away from me.
- I am completely alone.
In total, the shift landing up being pages of GP statements, and in a nutshell boils down to: family and children are disposable. This has statement played out in so many ways in my life - not least of which is my inherent dislike of young children.
It's not my most likable characteristic - I will actively cringe around kids and babies. I have none of that female maternal instinct at all and cannot understand the ridiculous obsession women have with babies. I walk very wide circles around pregnant women and moms of youngsters. So yes this requires being honest about who you are too.
Step one is identifying the GPs at play. Step two is awareness - that's usually enough to release the pattern. Like most statements, it is enough that it's brought to consciousness and becomes an aha moment.
Alternately you can engage the help of a healer if you haven't been doing this long yourself. Shamanic work, BodyTalk and Resonance Repatterning would be great tools for this. Simply go in with the GP statements you've identified and ask the practitioner to do an agenda on them.
You can also use mirrors questions to unpack your layers. Even though this isn't your energy, you've been living under it your whole life. So you've had experiences and learning unique to you. You need to unpack those and clear active memories of this energy from your own life so far: http://lifecoachestoolbox.com/newmirrors/
You can also use this basic tapping technique with each statement: http://lifecoachestoolbox.com/index.php/the-butterfly-tapping-technique
Simple processes like the tapping above work very well, but you need to have faith and trust in them. If you aren't sure or feeling confident, get a healer to assist you.
GPs release like any other statement, with awareness, but if you haven't worked with them before you may not be confident to do this alone. That's fine.
I usually find GPs can involve a release of emotion, because there are years of frustration and blocked emotion built into the DNA. All the unreleased pain that built up in the bodies of your ancestors as they were playing these patterns out.
So don't be surprised if you're weepy or crying - I managed almost 48 hours of nonstop tears with this one.
Also these patterns are deeply embedded and have impacted you since conception, so your system could react wildly when you shift it - think nausea, throwing up, bad Ascension flu. The longer you've been shifting, the easier these usually go.
You'll usually only find one, maybe two GPs in a shift - as I said I've only seen full GP shifts twice in my life. Whether it's one or a chain though, you can expect the 24 to 72 hour shift and integration, so allow at least 72 hours before you decide if you need help. It takes 24 hours to complete a meridian cycle, and you need a few of these to flush an old belief out sometimes.
So give it the 72 hours and don't panic if you're sick or having a contrast low (or even high)! Let it cycle for 72 hours before you take the next step. Most of the symptoms are just your body's natural way of flushing stuff out.