Trial By Fire or Dark Night of the Soul

  • When this stage of the journey first started happening to me, I couldn’t make any sense of it – it doesn’t make sense how accepting that you are worthless can lead to a breakthrough. I mean aren’t we meant to be realising we’re Gods?

    But the lessons kept coming, in deeper and deeper forms, and so I learned to surrenderto them over time, making the time period that they lasted shorter.

  • Ego in the world - The 8 Deadly Sins

    How perfect is this as a summation of what is wrong with the world and people today?

  • So being dumped back into human world and lots of ego reactions is integrating, and there has been fear building the past few days.

    This morning I woke up and there were four clear areas where I having or seeing a mirror of a fear reaction. The answer, as always, is handing over... if you can remember to while your inner voice runs riot.

  • According to a 1988 Gallup Poll, 94% of respondents said it was important to forgive, while 85% said they couldn’t do it with outside help.

    Even regular prayer was not found be effective in achieving forgiveness.

    So what is it that people get wrong about forgiveness that makes it seem like it is so far outside our reach?

  • Forgiving Yourself for Breaking God’s Commandments

    Twin Flames Break Up Update 1 of 2

    I live a deeply spiritual life, and if you’ve even had the briefest of interactions with me, you’ll know that. I’ll irritate you with how obsessive I am - even if you are deeply spiritual by your own standards. LOL :)

    For me, walking my talk is paramount, and I am VERY self disciplined in what I do. I’m not afraid to tighten my belt, limit myself and stick within very specific boundaries on certain things. Especially in matters spiritual.

    When I first found out that my Twit Flame of four years had been married all the time we’d been involved, I was shocked at a personal level.

    I have all this background with infidelity… ranging all the way back to my very narcissistic father who was a serial cheater.

    So at first, the knowledge that I’d been made a mistress hit me on that level.

    I felt the shame and humiliation and anger and resistance and vulnerability of the experience. Out of character for me, I didn’t cycle this up to a higher recursion. Probably because I was guilty of personalizing it too much.

    So in the past 24 hours when this realization hit me, well, it hit like a ton of bricks to be honest.

  • Free Will & Why We Remember Nothing at Birth

    This is a plane of free will. That means that free will is honored first. That's what they mean by we're born as Gods - our free will is honored first.

    Also why they say the universe will respond to manifestation - it is obliged to honor your free will.

    So every time you put something out there, anything you manifest, you are automatically making God your servant.

    Therefore, the ONLY way to serve God fully is to hand over your free will in every second. To make no decisions for yourself.

  • Why it feels like you are so much less important than everyone else right now.

    Loved this question and the response will fit what a lot of you are feeling :)

  • Generational Patterns

    So healing work aside, I still needed to unpack the emotional pathology behind the lockjaw and mouth pain. What I experienced was an entire shift of generational patterns.

    This one so rare, it's worth a mention just because it's so rare. Apart from yesterday, I've only ever seen this happen once before, in a shifting session I did for myself when I first started creating the mirrors process.

    A generational pattern is a belief, fear, energy, habit, pattern you inherit on the genetic line from one of your parents. You can think of it like family karma - it's passed down but not from soul to soul; it's passed down parent to child.

    One distinguishing way of looking at a Generational Pattern (GP) therefore, is that the energy would not follow you into a next incarnation. Unless you had personal experiences with that energy that created new karma, a new life would mean saying goodbye to those GPs permanently.

  • Give thanks you've escaped the system

    I guess I'm one of the very lucky ones, because my journey has happened in a way that isolated me from the world.

  • Global Check In - 6 February 2018

    So something is definitely afoot… what a few days this has been.

    As Tuesdays often do, this one feels like a switchover, so let’s hope the next week will be lighter.

    So we’ve just passed the once-in-a-lifetime Super Blue Blood Full Moon a few days ago, and symptoms have been all over the place.

  • Global Energy Check In & Update - 3 October 2017

    Otherwise known as… what energy? LOL ;)

  • Going Numb on the Ego Journey - Why you need to create drama

    Thomas Szasz has a few really good books worth reading, if you can get past the superfluous language lol :) One of my favorites is pleasure and pain.

    In the book, Szasz presents the following idea: pleasure is not a thing in and of itself, pleasure is actually the absence of pain.

    So in order to experience pleasure, you need the contrast of pain to know the pain has gone away.

  • Healing yourself - a practical example

    Soft drinks, cool drinks, cola and all the fizzy stuff

    So, like meat and dairy, one of the more common natural evolutions journeyers go through is eliminating fizzy drinks from their diets.

    For years, I had eliminated fizzy cold drinks, but had stuck to sparkling water. I finally gave the sparkling water up last year June, 2017.

    This week however, I was craving something different, and there was Sprite in the fridge, and so I had two small glasses over two days.

    Wow have I ever paid for it.

  • At the point when I ascended and the penny finally dropped about why complete alone is so important, I was really amazed.

    It’s so obvious – you can’t rely on external validation to tell you where you are on this journey, and you cannot rely on others’ opinions or their reactions to information, because you’ll fall into cognitive dissonance.

  • From a spiritual point of view, the attainment of reaching the level of a Dark Night of the Soul is nothing to be sneezed at – in order to get there you’ve certainly had to earn your spiritual stripes.

    However, hardly anything in life comes easily and without effort, and the price for reaching this level of spiritual achievement is the difficulty and complexity of the lessons that will populate your Dark Night of the Soul.

  • How media and minority issues are used to distract you from the real truth

    Approximately every 40 seconds, someone somewhere in the world successfully commits suicide. Those are just the successful attempts.

    Roughly, this means that 1-million people die every year from suicide, and that number is expected to reach 2-million by 2020, taking into account the rising trend of suicide.

  • How spiritual bypassing, and the accepted behavioral norms in society, breed narcissists, psychopaths and narcissistic behavior.

    Spiritual Bypassing is a really interesting term introduced by John Welwood, a Buddhist teacher and psychotherapist, back in the 80s.

    A spiritual bypass or spiritual bypassing is a "tendency to use spiritual ideas and practices to sidestep or avoid facing unresolved emotional issues, psychological wounds, and unfinished developmental tasks”.

    In a nutshell therefore, it’s how we use spiritual concepts to avoid dealing with the ugly truth of life that faces us sometimes.

    But the even uglier truth we’re facing right now is that we live in a world riddled with ego-driven narcissistic and psychopathic behavior - and so many of us are unhappy with it.

    So what are the beliefs and behaviors we engage in that enable narcissists and psychopaths to get away with the fraud and lies they are currently perpetrating?

  • How to do shadow work - How to face your dark, shadow or ego

    Cycling down to the rock bottom of lessons

    So before I even explain the process, I have to explain why we do shadow work and why it’s not a bad thing.

  • Until we redress our karmic debts, we’re doomed to be stuck on this earth plane.

    How do you free yourself from the trap of karma?

  • A major evolutionary stage like a Dark Night of the Soul is not something the universe gives you a heads up about; you kind of discover along the way (or afterwards) that this is already where you are.

    What are some of the clues that will tell you that you’re in a Dark Night of the Soul?

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