Shock and Emotional Trauma

  • Rebuilding trust after a betrayal is difficult - especially when you feel like your heart is all caged up and there’s nothing you seem to be able to do to get through to it.

    As someone who has been there, I can honestly tell that this is not going to be easy... like forgiveness work, the exercises are simple but can be incredibly difficult to actually do.

    Likewise, you’ll hear people say that forgiveness and trust exercises are useless, which is true if your intention is wrong.

    Get your intention right and really mean for trust be granted again and it will happen - the exercises will work their magic.

  • 3D vs 5D reality question

    "How will my spiritual growth & knowledge affect my relationship with my spouse and children?

    I've already seen both negative and positive shifts; however I can't help wondering if as I grow more, that my inclination will be to separate myself from them - which I don't want to happen."

    So this isn’t just about immediate relationships, but every relationship that is around you.

    And the short answer is yes - the growth will impact your journey A LOT, and not in ways that you necessarily expect.

  • The worst thing about being in an abusive relationship with a bully, abuser or narcissist is the long-term damage it does to your self-esteem – the way it changes how you feel about, see and interact with the world.

  • Maybe it’s a result of the greed and ego focus of the world we live in, but many of us are, or have been in relationship with narcissists and psychopaths.

    How do narcissists and psychopaths break down your self-esteem in abusive relationships?

  • 8 dangerous myths about Twin Flame relationships

    When you first hear about Twin Flames the idea is appealing - largely because it’s misunderstood at first.

    Most people make the mistake of thinking that a Twin Flame means guaranteed love - a guaranteed relationship.

    The second reason that Twin Flames appeal is this desperate need we all have to be special - at least to one person… The One.

    In this regard, ego has really screwed us over, as has society, with this idea of entitlement to love, a guarantee of love from Divine sources.

  • A coaching tool that you can use to release depression and suicidal thoughts.

    If you’ve battled the grip of depression and suicide in your life, then you’ll know just how insidious and tenacious that aspect can be.

  • If you are interested in A Course in Miracles and would like to further your practice, but aren’t quite understanding the text, or are battling to read it, then this is a practical guide for daily actions to keep you in line with ACIM practice.

  • The two prayers below are daily prayers crafted from the A Course in Miracles (ACIM) text, and include what is instructed to be prayed for daily.

    An alternate way to use these is to use them as a dedication before repeating the Lord's Prayer or Ana B'Koach three times.

  • This prayer is carefully crafted from the direct statements from A Course in Miracles, and can practically be used at any time, for any application. It's one-size fits all :)

    You can also use sections of the prayer alone for specific applications. Each paragraph or verse of the prayer can be used as a standalone, with Lord heal me, Lord atone for me as the opening line.

  • A grief and loss experience, post-ascension

    So I don’t often get really tangible experiences to illustrate what it’s like for me since I crossed over, what you can expect and why you want to get there, but my current experience of grief and loss over Eggy is unfolding…. and it’s fascinating.

  • A healer's perspective on manifestation

    A thought just occurred... the whole concept of single-mindedly focusing on a goal when you're manifesting is really difficult to do, and it's where most of us fall over.

    And then I realized its because it's an unnatural process - it requires us to ignore the shadow: the doubts and fears etc.

    Those ego/shadow emotions are not emotions that like to be ignored - if you just avoid them, they only get louder and louder.

    Then I thought, there has to be a way or point that the alignment with the resonance happens instantaneously - as a revelation.

  • The very idea that you should be able to feel love for them - that you even exist in the first place - that's the Ego trap.

    You will change and vacillate as you grow... sometimes you'll have hope, at other times you will feel disdain, at others complete disappointment.

  • The Ego or spiritual journey has as one of its goals that you accept death, the transience of life.

    This is one of the more vague pieces of the puzzle that doesn't readily make sense.

  • The Ego or spiritual journey has as one of its goals that you accept death, the transience of life.

    This is one of the more vague pieces of the puzzle that doesn't readily make sense.

  • Am I a crazy white supremacist? TL;DR: No, I’m making a point - and taking a stand!

    LOL, I’ve written some salacious pieces in the last little while… and I’m pretty sure I’m gonna have to face this question if these get any traction.

    I know some people hate seeing LOL in an article… but get over it. I laugh - a lot and way too loudly, I am often told. This part me is me explaining why I’m doing this, so you get me with all my LOLs and winky faces ;)

    So which salacious pieces have I written, you ask?

    If you knew me prior to this, or you go look back, you’ll discover these pieces are a departure from what I normally write.

    But yeah, seems like some stuff is going down in the world, and if there was ever a time to add your voice (back) into the global mix again, I suppose this is it.

    So upfront - nope, I’m not a crazy white supremacist, or a racist, or even usually particularly bothered with politics.

    I just think that we all have a moral obligation to speak out during this time, and stop this slippery slope into chaos that the world seems to be hurtling down.

    Also I’m clearly ballsy, and I’ve had a few brushes with being controversial in the past. And I have some big shoulders… so I’m (relatively) okay with carrying some of the hate that I know will be aimed at me for this. Not literally bullet proof; but pretty mentally and emotionally steely.

    Controversy, and rubbing people up the wrong way however, those are gifts I have in abundance LOL. And once you get past wanting everyone to accept you, you get okay with taking some flack in order to say what needs to be said. Also it helps that I’ve had lifelong practice with people being pissed off at me for saying the wrong thing ;)

    It helps that I’m bit of a rebel without a pause I suppose. I had put it on the back burner when I transitioned from left to right, and no longer thought of myself as an SJW, or responsible for deciding what other people think. But I kind of always knew I’d need to reenter the fray again one day.

    God’s gifts don’t come without their price!

    I’ve been pondering this for a while - this whole left/right divide that’s been going on all over the world, and I’ve slowly started to realize that conservatives lose on fronts like media, simply because we’re too reasonable and too tame.

    We are thinkers for the most part. We feel passionately about things yes, but we have reasoned our passion. We can usually give arguments for why we got here… which, for many of us, has already meant we’ve had to reconsider our entire selves as progressives or liberals.

    On the progressive left however, we’re dealing with a bunch of overly emotional people, who are again passionate - but passionate simply because they feel a certain way. Not because they’ve had to make a choice about it.

    Often, the liberal left’s mindset has been shaped by the echo chamber, confirmation bias, the natural persecution we all feel during our childhood years, a single incident, or learned ideologies, both from media, social circles, family, and your immediate environments. Attend a liberal school, you’re likely to land up being liberal.

    However, the ideas often aren’t reasoned… LOL, I say this into our confirmation bias echo chamber, of course ;) The irony does not escape me!

    So what we’re landing up with is conservatives trying to get an angry and emotional progressive mob to engage in civil discourse. We’re thinking that the more civil we are, the more civil it will encourage them to be. You know, open the door for meaningful discussion.

    And the more riled up the left gets, the more calm conservatives are staying; in the hope that the same courtesy will be returned to us.

    I partly think here that because we don’t show the same emotional fervor, many on the left think we’re not as passionate, or we’re doormats. They don’t recognise our reason as a way of expressing this - they only recognize the way they express, which is emotion.

    Basically we’re fighting fire with water, and the fire keeps growing, fueled by a never ending source - and all we’re creating is a ton of steam.

    So… I’m wondering, with my sly little media and marketing mind… what if we tried a different approach?

    What if it’s time to fight fire… with fire? What if we strike out ahead of them and burn a few firebreaks? Steal a few of their ideas and turn them into our own?

    Like Black Lives Matter can become White Lives Matter - or even All Lives Matter. The idea of black government can be replaced with us pushing for a white government - or highlighting the increasingly ever-abounding ineptitude of the black governments around the world?

    Where we usually stand still on vaccines, as long as we can make our own choice about them, maybe we should be calling to remove all vaccines? Maybe we should be calling to remove the choice for abortions?

    And it’s not that we even want these things really… it’s just that the left has pushed so far forward on all these - and many more - issues, largely because we are respecting them and their right to freedom of choice. So we’re politely stepping aside.

    But what if we stopped stepping aside?

    What if, just what if… we started pushing back? Started showing them that we can stand up and push for issues too… and if we do that, that it will be a very scary world in which they are the ones that will get no choices?

    What if, just what if… we turned the tables?

    What if we met the shock and awe scare tactics of the left head on, and used salacious content and headlines to pull them into reading a few pieces that present the other point of view? Think of it as lefty-clickbait.

    Granted I probably won’t make huge inroads, and even when we reach people, chances are that we’ll only convert a tiny percentage with logic and reasoning… but it’s always worth a try.

    We can’t keep standing here calmly, waiting for them to be reasonable, or talk to us civilly though. We’re getting nowhere fast with this strategy.

    Why am I laying it out so bare here? Well the left are never gonna wonder over here to read this - it’s not like they look for much outside their confirmation bias. So in plain view seems to be the perfect hiding place.

    And any lefties that do read it will misquote and take it entirely out of context, and just skim read anyway. It’s not like they’re going to absorb the info, or even have the mental discipline to apply the knowledge when they’re emotionally riled up ;)

    This way, at least conservatives know I’m not crazy, and if my experiments work and get movement, then it’s a tool we can use in future.

    I stay within the realms of what is constitutional, and I have checked the South African Constitution very carefully. I stay within those boundaries.

    A look at the South African Constitution:

    The ideas I’m representing are exactly that - opinions and ideas. Pieces meant to provoke thought, and even emotional responses - because that’s part of what a good writer does. LOL you could cheekily call some of it conservative fan-fiction, I suppose ;)

    So conservatives - I’m not a whacko. I’m just a girl with big balls, who’s willing to put herself on the line a bit in order to see if we can make some headway.

    If you agree with me and want to support me, please share all the content on my website and the YouTube channels. I will be trying to cover all the issues that are important on our side of the fence, and Humans Right related.

    If you disagree with my strategy, then I ask you to consider why President Trump gets under people's skins so much? It's definitely not because he puts them at ease. As a coach and mentor I've learned that discomfort is usually where you have to be for growth, and I'm pretty awesome at sitting with that discomfort. I can't think God wants me to ignore these kinds of skills when the Holy Spirit keeps sending me to all these controversial topics.

    If you do have any ideas that you think I should be tackling - from anywhere in the world - then send them. I am already putting myself out there to ruffle feathers, if I can, and so I may as well put it to good use. Email me on This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.

    If I get myself killed while doing this… well then clearly I did a good enough job, and I hope one of you picks up the banner and puts my death to good use. Clearly if I get offed or suicided (which I can guarantee you I will NEVER do - I healed ALL those parts of myself through God), I have done enough to make them notice me enough, to be pissed off enough, to take me out. So it will be a win.

    None of us get very many real choices in life… about the only thing we really can decide about our lives, is what we are willing to die for. What we are willing to be sacrificed to achieve.

    I gave my heart and life and mind and soul to God many years ago, and I have been prepared to meet my maker for a very long time.

    I promise you, if God deems it necessary for me to die to further this cause, and stop this crazy descent the world is in… I’m good with that.

    Today I make no decisions for myself, I ask only for the day that God would have me have. If you would have me do it, I will do it. If you will not have me do it, I will not do it. I give this day to God.

    God Bless - and see you on the other side.



    Watch the video on the future of Black Lives Matter at


    Watch the video "Do Black Lives Really Matter?" at


    Watch the video "Is it time to divide the world into political zones and vote with our feet" at

  • I lived through the apartheid changeover in South Africa. In fact I turned 16 the day after the famous 1994 elections. When I entered high school, I went into a racially-integrated school because racial segregation had been lifted.

    Over the past nearly 23 years I’ve watched my country and people evolve… and it has gotten ugly, largely because people are determined to hold onto the ugliness and hatred.

  • An argument for patience

    Since achieving enlightenment in December 2016, barriers have dropped away that have enabled me to see the final connections on stuff that I just could never before.

    Like I knew the details of the morphic field, but I couldn't quite see actually how it worked and the mechanisms and how it really all fit in. Now however I can put my mind there and within a while the answer just comes.

    So at the same time, spiritual concepts have really made sense and I've really been able to apply them as tools. Concepts like faith, appreciation, patience, compassion, humility.

    The most fascinating of these though is patience...

    I've been actively applying patience as a tool.

  • An incredible forgiveness release

    What an incredibly powerful and healing day yesterday (16 May 2017) was. In the space of an hour, we reconciled 17 years of pain, abandonment and misunderstanding and achieved a complete forgiveness release among all the parties involved.

    Yes - in an hour, really. Then we went out for milkshakes as a family.

  • Coaching Strategy for:

    • Physical System Support
    • Practical Functionality (Getting stuff done day to day)

    This will help you face the things you need to do, like work and focus and meetings and chores.

  • We're definitely butting heads with control structures and 3D souls who want to try and control what they see and cannot understand.

    Luckily yesterday I did see a lot of stuff lift in that regard, and things are starting to flow more easily.

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