Forgiving Yourself for Breaking God’s Commandments
Twin Flames Break Up Update 1 of 2
I live a deeply spiritual life, and if you’ve even had the briefest of interactions with me, you’ll know that. I’ll irritate you with how obsessive I am - even if you are deeply spiritual by your own standards. LOL :)
For me, walking my talk is paramount, and I am VERY self disciplined in what I do. I’m not afraid to tighten my belt, limit myself and stick within very specific boundaries on certain things. Especially in matters spiritual.
When I first found out that my Twit Flame of four years had been married all the time we’d been involved, I was shocked at a personal level.
I have all this background with infidelity… ranging all the way back to my very narcissistic father who was a serial cheater.
So at first, the knowledge that I’d been made a mistress hit me on that level.
I felt the shame and humiliation and anger and resistance and vulnerability of the experience. Out of character for me, I didn’t cycle this up to a higher recursion. Probably because I was guilty of personalizing it too much.
So in the past 24 hours when this realization hit me, well, it hit like a ton of bricks to be honest.